went for another run today to release stress.run my sec sch cross country road n it used to look so long but it is like nothing to me today.maybe too numb to feel anything.haiz..read something which i shldnt have early in the morning n make myself so miserable throughout the day.luckily no one saw my teary eyes in the office.n i manage to control myself.on the way hme..was walking n crying under the rain so no one can c me cry.i kno i shldnt bother about anything to do with him anymore but i cant control myself.life is always not under our control..i am yearning over something which i kno i cannot get forever..n its the same for him but maybe he is more lucky than me?i hope he does..even if i am not happy..i wish he is in a better state than me cos i kno tis feeling is no gd..n i dun wan any of my frens to be the same as me.posted a new song.tis is one of the songs he send me.always cried whenever i sing tis song in ktv.these sentences really describes how i feel..coffee cant numb the feelings in me..it onli makes the nite longer..i am lost in the big city..drifting aimlessly and looking for someone tat i can hold on to.
*My heart is broken,my soul is bashed...why is it the only person who can help me,doesnt even see the pain they put me in..*
*How can i listen to my mind say"give up. say goodbye. and walk away."when my heart is sayin"you're gonna love him anyway??"*
*You used to sleep, dreaming about falling in love.
Now you are scared to sleep, cos u are scared to dream of him*
*Which hurts more..Thinking you should hate him?Or knowing that you can't?*
