i jus feel like blogging blogging n blogging.i'm so tired of life..wanna cry yet i dun wan my frens to worry about me.i wanna hide somewhere n cry all day long.but if i am alone i will think of him and the things we did together.everything WAS so sweet.he was so sweet too.i am so lost..lost n lost.it nv happen to me before.y do i have to put in so much of my feelings when in the first place i already predicted something like tis will happen.i really think love is not forever.i really dun hope to fall in love again.i might always be waiting for him or i might numb myself of all feelings.i really feel like drinking all again.ytd i drank til i totally got no time to think of him.but tis wk is so long.i stil nid to go sch i really dunno wat to do.i scared i will cry in sch during lessons in front of frens i jus know.wat shld i do now.i already trying to make myself busy.tis wkend was supposed to be reserved for him n yet i am spending it crying.seriously i dunno y u have to do tis to me.even if u dun love me y do u have to hurt me like tis.can u tell me....we had so many plans before tis thing suddenly came crashing down on me.we were still having lunch happily n msging each other.when i wake up frm my slp n i saw ur sms its like the whole world collapse.my world is dark now.nuttin can be change.i dun wan time to turn back becos everything was so sweet, i onli wish ur parents have accepted me frm the startin.i wish u will come back to me one day but i kno it is not possible...jus a wish n i kno it will nv come true.i can see u have given up..i hope some god will grant me a wish now and my onli wish now is to be together with u.i am really so foolish and stupid.