jus got hme frm wrk an hr ago.when i start wrk today i stil feel like crying i dunno y.maybe cos i feel so lonely at wrk n thought of him much more when i was wrking.vomited once today cos my stomach is not doing very well lately.did cried but is much lesser compared to the first few days.was talking to sheeqah about wat happened lately n she told me about her husband n i feel more sorry for her than myself.if the guys r playing ard with us..afterall i'm not married but she is n the onli step for her is divorce n mine is jus to forget wat has happened.tmr is a long day for me with the company of my two close frens..yippy n qier.they specially reserved the day jus to accompany me.think their plan is to go chill out at iguana cafe n drink til late nite.lately i am starting to feel tat maybe he is jus playing ard with me afterall.cos everyone is telling me tat..n afterall he is a chiongster n he got the looks..so y am i stil trusting n believing him so much up til now..haiz...i duno anything anymore.really dunno.its in the past.so tired of life now..its jus wrk n study.sun will be a drinking nite for me again.meiyi said to bring 6 bottles n make sure i drink all up..i think 1 bottle is enough to make me slp.today was supposed to accompany him when his parents r at genting but everything is onli plan when we r together.we did planned to go to ying chalet together but its not possible now.today meiyi mentioned the kukup trip n i thought of him again cos we also plan to go overseas together but everything is jus a dream.not gonna happened at all anymore.everything for tis wkend was planned so ahead...but the future is unpredictable..so i'm not gonna plan for my future anymore..wats the use of planning when everything nv goes according to plan..haiz...i'm gonna retired for the nite for drinking tmr n sun..sand n ying thanks for accompanying me the past wk n maybe the coming wk or month or so.both of u have been really really really great.thanks.
