i am back home thinking again.feel hungry yet cant get anything into my stomach.jus feel like vomiting when i c food.thanks friends for all ur company thru tis 2 days and ur consolation.i really appreciate it but i jus nid lots n lots of time.tis is my 4th post for the day.there is nowhere i can express my feelings and thoughts but here onli.i am writing tis n my eyes is watering again.frens..pls pardon me for being so emotional lately.we took alot of pictures and the pictures jus doesnt load when he send it to me.and the pictures suddenly appear after i broke with him.heaven always likes to play a joke on me.a cruel joke.i think i am numbing myself temporarily of all feelings in relationship in future.i am lost forever.my fren make me play mahjong to keep myself occupied n yet i cry in front of them on the mahjong table.nite is here n it is the most difficult time of the day to pass.home is also a place that i dun wan to be at for the moment but i stil got to come hme to not let my sisters and parents worry about me.if u ever read my blog..i kno u chose ur family over me n i dun blame u.family is forever and our love might not be forever.i will slowly put it down but now i stil cant.or maybe i will wait for u.i cannot predict the future.jus let time do the wrk.i really dunno anymore.i dun think i can find another one whom i love so much.although its been short.i really got so much things to say.today is the second day..i dunno how long more i will nid to get over it.u took 10 months and maybe i nid forever.i feel so giddy, hungry, feverish, and alot of emotions is flooding me now.but i stil dun wanna slp.nxt few days will be more difficult for me..with sch, wrk n everyone ard me asking wat happened.n i will break down and cry again and again explaining to frens and colleagues.i feel like dying but jus dun haf the courage to do so..and i stil got my family and friends.
