2nd diarrhoea of the day.tried to nap a while in the noon cos no one is free to accompany me today.while napping i suddenly was frightened awake..i suddenly got the feeling tat i am losing something but i dunno wat..i immediately went to the com to c wat is wrong.when i feels more awake i realise all had been a dream.i was so frightened..really frightened at that point of time.i guess it is this thing tat has happened tat make me even dream of it.i have lose him tats y even when i slp i dream of losing something.up til now i stil can remember the smell of him..the way he holds my hand..the way he kiss me n the way he hug me..i cant even bear to delete the msg n the photos inside my hp although i kno everything is in the past.sometimes i cant even bear to look at my hp.cos i kno i will jus scroll to his old msgs n read them n i will cry again.n i jus did it once today.i really hope things go back to normal faster..i'm going club hopping later again to pass the nite faster cos nite is the most difficult time of the day although i dun really like clubbing.tis is the onli place i can pen down my feelings everyday even if no one reads it i wil stil continue writing so tat i wont coup everything up inside me n burst one day.
